I call it an awakening!
Coasting through life thinking everything that happens to you is 'normal' isn't always the case and eventually we wake up and see the truth. At that moment, you have to make a choice. You can either except your reality and live with that or you can hope for better and choose to leave and start again. I won't go into details of what happened to me, I'm not one to air my dirty laundry in public, I never have and I never will. There's 2 sides to every story and I choose to hold onto mine, for now anyway.
Over the past 2 years, there's been struggles and I've had to learn to love myself again. One of the things I've struggled with is my hair colour, I'd forgotten which colour I actually like and want. I've been many shades of blonde and brunette, pinks and combinations of both at times.
My hair is what helps me to feel good about myself, so why am I constantly changing it? I'm not sure if it's boredom, an expression of what I'm feeling or that I'm just not happy with it. The added joys of ever appearing grey hairs sure doesn't help my situation, they're driving my crazy, trying to cover them up all the time, it's exhausting. Just one of the many joys of getting old(er) I suppose. The hair falling out, well that's a different story for another day.
I've been feeling a little down this week, I had a cold and was feeling a little sorry for myself as I do every so often. The first thing I thought of was, I hate my hair and I need to change it. Online I popped and ordered some new colours of hair dye. I can be very impulsive at times when it comes to my hair. Is that just a me thing? Or is anyone else as bad? Please say I'm not alone on this, I tend to be happy for a few weeks and then I get bored with it again *sighs*.
Well, the hair dye is due to arrive in the next few hours. Whether I dye my hair or not today, is yet to be decided, I'll see how I feel once I have the boxes in my hands and go from there.
Wish me luck x
Comments
Post a Comment